I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. My ex, who is a good person and never cheated on me, which should be noted... Was always flirting with guys. And every male wanted to get with her. And I've seen other girls who are in relationships, or even married cheating on their men left and right and then when their guy is around hang all over him and act like he's the best thing in the world.
It really makes me never want to get married to anyone. Disloyalty is something I can't tolerate. I've never cheated and never will. If I really have that strong of an urge to cheat, I would break up with the girl I was with first. You don't do that to people. And for the record, I've never ever had close to that urge to do that.
I see all these happy couples walking the street and I doubt to myself whether or not it's real, or if one of them (could be the guy too) or both of them are being disloyal to one another. It's an awful chip to have on your shoulder. I literally feel like I can't trust anyone. I have a few friends I trust with my life... but most of the people I hang with I have no trust in and don't trust them with anything on a personal level. It's sad, because I never used to be that way... But the girl before the last one... I lived with her. We were together for 2 and a half years. I had the ring. She cheated on me with three guys... One of which was her best friends boyfriend, who she's now engaged to. And I've seen him out making out with other chicks. No, I didn't say anything, karma sucks... And I don't really care either... But it's these types of things that make me sour as hell.
There are good girls out there. I know that. But the trick is finding out which ones they are... because girls (and guys too) can put up one hell of a facade and then turn out to be total ****ing scum.