I know its the common thing as soon as your child is born for all the dad to say stuff like "I knew the second I saw them that I would do anything for them" or "I never felt love like that". But here's the secert - Its BS. Not for everyone, but for MOST dads it BS. We didnt just spend 9 months having that child inside of us. What really happened is we had our wife, she got big, and then there was this baby that shows up. It takes a little bit for that bond with your child to happen.
I love my kids more then anything at this point. (Age 11 and 8). The things I have given up for them...man, from where I live to what I do to who I date now. Almost all of it has been with the focus being my kids. I am extremely involved and heres the big thing - It doesn't bother me 1 bit. I like my life because of my kids.
HOWEVER - those 1st few weeks? I didn't feel ANY of that. All I felt was how much my life changed. I put on the happy face, told my friends how great things were, but all I was was scared. Scared that I didn't feel what I was suppose to feel. Feel I didn't know what I was doing. Fear my best days were behind me. I would look at my son and think "Um..ok...So now what." My wife, who did suffer PPD on the 2nd, but was fine on the 1st - seem to adjust quickly. I just kept thinking "Sure I love him..but what about what I wanted to do".
But here's the thing....that faded. It was all ok. Did the love I was expecting happen on day 1 or week 1? nope. but soon, it was there. Soon...none of that other stuff seemed important.